Caving in and general thoughts on God

The job search has officially begun. I’ve been resisting getting this process moving…probably because I don’t really want to work for a living – not at a day job at any rate. Reality being what it is, a job is a necessity so, as there is no getting around it – fine, I’ve started looking. The past couple days have been fairly depressing with what’s been on offer but today there was an assistant position paying way more than I was making and asking for no prior experience…odd but tempting. We’ll see if anything comes of it. I think they may shoot me down for being overqualified but well, to trot out a much overused phrase, nothing ventured-nothing gained. Bleh, this whole process is miserable but…sigh…necessary so I’m going to stop complaining about it – I really am…I promise. It occurred to me the other day that I’d still really, really like to use my distribution to pay off my credit cards rather than to live on for the next few months. That I have the option is certainly a good thing but, having considered it for the nearly two months I’ve been not working, I’ve come to the conclusion that the thought of it running out is far too frightening to pay too much attention to the situation. I’ve been reading and watching movies and playing games and staying up all night long enough. Even writing that is a bit painful. I like doing those things far more than I like working…I hate getting up every morning and driving to work, spending all day there before returning home and staring at the television for the 3-4 hours I’ve got before going to bed and repeating the whole process day after day, week after week…I know I’m far from original in this but damn! If so many people don’t think this is an ideal way to live, why do we keep doing it?

Had a conversation with my sister-in-law tonight largely centered around divinity and intolerance and fear. Interesting as ever. My thoughts here are pretty basic…or at least what I consider to be fairly basic at any rate. I believe the divinity is in every living thing, that the only true evil is in causing harm and that fear is the driving force behind all the evils humans perpetrate on themselves and on the world around them. That’s it…not terribly original I’m afraid but does this subject really call for originality at this point?